“Uh huh. Acha main ek baat puchu?”
“Sure.”
“Tumne kuch baatein kahi thi mujhse…mere bare me jisne mujhe sochne par majboor kar diya. Kittu,…shit, kaise kahun,…lekin…tumhare man me mere liye kuch hai kya?”
“….Um,…mujhe apke sath rehna pasand hai. Bahut jyada hi. Aur sach kahun to, jab main kehti hun ki main apse pyar karti hun, to, I guess, wo kuch jyada hi menaningful hota hai. Apki ummeed se bhi jyada.”
“Okay….dekha, main ye feeling hata hi nahi pata ki tum janbujhkar mujhe seduce karne ki kosis karti ho, aur mostly successful bhi ho jati ho.”
“…Aap gussa ho?”
“Nahi, haan kal raat kuch der ke liye tha, lekin…shit. Mujhe bas tumhari chinta hoti hai, okay? Main nahi chahta ki itne saal jitni mehnat se jo maine tumhari jindagi achi karne ki kosis ki hai wo ek hi jhatke me kharab ho jaye.”
“… Lekin, abhi to nahi ho na gussa?”
“Nahi,” unhone saas lete hue kaha, “Vaise bhi main tum par gussa reh bhi nahi sakta.”
Main apni god me apne nakhuno ko kured rahi thi. “Aap kisi bhi tarike se meri jindagi kharab nahi kar sakte. Main janti hun mujhe kya chahiye.”
“Tum sirf unnees saal ki ho.”
“Mujhe pata hai mujhe kya chahiye.”
“… Kittu, please is baar ke liye, tumhe mujh par trust karna padega aur meri baat sunani padegi, yahi tumhare liye acha hai.”
“I know what I want.”
“Oh, fuck… Kittu, is umar par, tum soch bhi nahi sakti ki iske kya anjam honge jo tum chahti ho. Ye koi computer ya dancing job nahi hai, ye…important chiz hai. Please puri baat ko dekho, jaisa maine hamesha kaha hai.”
“Maine socha hai Daddy, sach me. Maine bataya na, mujhe koi ladka nahi chahiye na hi koi gandi soch wala admi jo mujhse shadi karke apni gulami karwaye. Main is mamle me bahut chosy hun aur apke level ka abhi tak to mujhe koi mila nahi hai.”
“Fir wahi,” wo pareshan hone lage the,” tum sirf unnees saal ki ho. Tumhara koi boyfriend bhi nahi hai.”
“Mujhe aajkal ke ye har waqt mobile me pade rehne wale ladke nahi pasand. Aur aajkal ke boyfriends bas sex me interested hote hain. Aur apne mujhe itna to sikhaya hi hai ye sahi nahi hai.”
“Lekin ache ladke bhi hote hain.”
“Oh acha. Aajkal ki so called new generation ke ladke, jo har waqt kano me headhphone lagaye mobile me pade rehte hain, wo bhi important chizo par baat karne ke liye ki “Kahan ho?” “Kisse baat kar rahi thi?” “Phone kyu nahi uthaya?” “Mere liye tumhare paas time nahi hai?” what the fuck. Aur usi dauran ye log ek jimmedar admi ki tarah kaam bhi nahi kar sakte, kyuki aadhe se jyada time to pant ghutno par rehti hai! Seriously, main ye drama nahi jhel sakti. I’m not someones slave. Boyfriend ka matlab ye to nahi ki main gulami karo. Mujhe in sabme nahi padna.”
“Okay, okay, shant,” wo serious hote hue bhi haste hue bole. “Tumne kabhi socha hai ki ye kahi isliye to nahi ki tumhare hormones itne jyada tej hain.”
“Usse koi farq nahi padta. Maine kaha na, mujhe pata hai ki mujhe kya chahiye. I want a real man aur wo aap ho. Period.”
“…Tarif ke liye shukriya, lekin fir bhi main allow nahi karunga.”
“Oh!,…Daddy!” maine jhunjhulate hue unka hath pakad ke apni god me khich liya. “Aapne subah meri baat nahi suni? Mere liye sex sirf….iski psychological side bhi hai jo mere liye satisfy hona bahut jaruri hai, aur mere liye ye bahut badi baat hai. Jo kuch kal raat hua usse mujhe itna sukoon mila hai jitna main khud se kabhi nahi paa sakti. Aur jab aap mujhe keh rahe ho ki aap allow nahi karoge to ye to wahi hua ki kisi bimar ko uski dawai nahi mile! Daddy, mujhe apka lund chahyiye!”
“..Okay, relax, shant ho jao,” unhone dhire se kaha, main udhar unke hath ko dabaye ja rahi thi gusse me.
“Kittu, tumhe meri najar se is chiz ko dekhna hoga. I mean, fuck, tum beti ho meri. Mujhe kaisa feel hoga, socha hai?”
“Aap khud mujhe chahte ho.”
“Main-…kitttu, main–”
“Hum dono ye baat jante hain.”
“…(sigh)! Haan, main chahta hun. Lekin, kittu, tumhe aag se khelna band karna hoga, nahi to kisi waqt…”
“Kya?”
“Aisi chize hath se bahar chali jati hain kittu. Aur waise bhi jo kuch hum dono kar rahe the wo pehle se hi galat hai.”
“Nahi hai. Jab tak main baby nahi karti tab tak kuch bhi galat nahi hai, aur upar se main pills le rahi hun.”